A little piece of treasure

Written by on January 4, 2006 in The Healing Journey with 0 Comments

Last night I was going through my little house cleaning, throwing things out, rearranging and discovering. What started as a simple taking down the Christmas tree, turned into an all day late into the night cleaning session.

It’s interesting what you will find when you go through all the stuff you’ve accumulated. I found a bag filled with music sheets…music sheets that I had back when I was a little girl, including some songs my father and I worked on together. He was my vocal coach…ironic, isn’t it? He’s the main reason for losing my voice, the reason for the self censorship and unbreakable law to never talk about that which is never to be talked about.

Of course, his interest in my singing wasn’t for my own self expression, but the kick he got out of having a “precocious” daughter. There’s the original copy of the music sheet I learned the auria from Madame Butterfly, Un Bel Di Vedremo, at the tender age of 12, and Gerswhin’s Summer Time. My name is printed on the sheets, and there’s my writing, notes, instructions on how to sing what part. The music sheets are marked “Price, 75 cents”.

It’s been a while.

I smile this time though. It’s strange…there’s a tenderness, a kind of sadness when I look at these sheets, hold them in my hand…a kind of poignant loss. But I cherish them too. I don’t mind that tender raw place they open up inside me. This is a part of my past, and it’s not such a bad thing.

Why do people want to leave the past behind? We take it with us anyway, because it’s not really something we carry, but something that’s a part of us.

It’s a matter, I think, of coming to terms with…perhaps making peace with.

Anyway, these sheets are like little treasures. So it hurts a bit…maybe more than just a bit, but so what? I hold these sheets in my hands and I smile just the same.

Now, that’s the treasure.

Demian,
~DreamSinger

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About the Author

About the Author: Greetings, fellow dreamer, and welcome! I’m Demian Yumei, author, singer/songwriter and artist activist. Some of my creative projects are a CD of healing music, “For the Sake of Love” and a children’s book on the interconnectedness of life, “Little Yellow Pear Tomatoes” published by Illumination Arts. Currently, I’m in the process of creating podcasts for my book series on covert abuse. My commitment is to the creative process especially as it relates to the healing journey. Whether I’m singing at a vigil for asylum seekers, memorial for political activists or sitting around a table sharing tea and conversation with friends who just want to talk heart to heart, I am always deeply moved by the human spirit to love and live with authentic beauty. Thank you for being here, for reading my posts and/or listening to my podcast. There’s much to share, much to create and the journey has just begun! Meet you on the path. .

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