Keeping the Dream

First one in I don’t know how long. Almost two years maybe, when we recorded “Little Yellow Pear Tomatoes”.

This was GREAT! I spent the day working on figuring out software for video editing, and then out to early dinner with a friend. As I was driving down the lane I thought how this was almost like taking my life back…and I liked it.

For so long, for years and years, it seems like I’ve been taking care of other people, from my mother to children to my sister to a dear friend, none of whom I would trade for anything…well, except for being a surrogate mom to a grown woman when I was a child. Everyone else I’d be there for in the same way and where my children are concerned, even more.

But somewhere along the line, I’ve become a full-time caretaker to where I look ahead at the coming year and see the time I would normally have for my projects given over to driving to Shrewsbury to tutor my youngest.

It’s not going to happen like that.

I need this. I need this to live. It’s like living again, like being a seed in parched land that has finally felt its first drop of rain. Every project has been piecemeal and needing to justify or explain or defend any scrap of time for my creativity. Some of it has been through the company I kept, some of it has been my own sense of not feeling I had a right to my time, my space, my creativity.

God forbid that you should love what you do! Now, punching a time clock or working double shifts, that’s a different story. Everyone understands that!

But I digress. Today my music partner and I recorded and crafted a new song, the one I wrote only a few weeks ago. “No Apologies”, no less.

Truly, it is more than appropriate.