Child Inside

Written by on October 21, 2005 in The Healing Journey with 0 Comments

Twenty years ago, I had a dream. I dreamt of a person who hated me and I had returned that hate with my own animosity.

In my dream, she was standing there in front of me, facing me. As I looked at her, I realized I could see through her. Her abdomen was somehow transparent.

As I looked closer, I could see a child inside her. It kicked and screamed in a tantrum, but could not catch the attention of this woman. As I watched, I noticed there were other people standing around this woman, each one of them with transparent bellies, each one oblvious to the child within them.

A child whimpered in one. Another was bawling. Some children were angry and violent, others ghostly and still.

My view expanded like the widening of a camera angle, and I began to see hundreds, then thousands of grown people – a world full of people all transparent with children trapped inside them.

All I could do was watch with a horrid fascination. Then suddenly, I felt a pull to look down. I slowly lowered my eyes, and as I did, I had a sickening feeling that I would see my own child trapped inside. I could not bear to look at her pain…or look at her lookin up at me.

I woke up.

Dreams come and go, are notated in a journal or forgotten…this one has remained with me to this day. It still shakes me up, when I think of it, and it serves as a powerful motivation behind my desire to write and sing.

It has also had a powerful impact on how I see people I have conflict with…when I can get out of myself long enough to remember.

I wonder what happens to the child who gets the attention of the person they have become.

Someone once told me they didn’t want to deal with the stuff from the past, because they didn’t want to dwell on it. But it dwells in us, doesn’t it?

Maybe, we can take the time to draw our gaze down and inward. There might be someone who has something to tell us that we need to hear, and maybe we have something we’ve been waiting our whole life…living our whole life to tell them.

Demian,
~DreamSinger

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About the Author

About the Author: Greetings, fellow dreamer, and welcome! I’m Demian Yumei, author, singer/songwriter and artist activist. Some of my creative projects are a CD of healing music, “For the Sake of Love” and a children’s book on the interconnectedness of life, “Little Yellow Pear Tomatoes” published by Illumination Arts. Currently, I’m in the process of creating podcasts for my book series on covert abuse. My commitment is to the creative process especially as it relates to the healing journey. Whether I’m singing at a vigil for asylum seekers, memorial for political activists or sitting around a table sharing tea and conversation with friends who just want to talk heart to heart, I am always deeply moved by the human spirit to love and live with authentic beauty. Thank you for being here, for reading my posts and/or listening to my podcast. There’s much to share, much to create and the journey has just begun! Meet you on the path. .

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