A little piece of treasure

Written by on January 4, 2006 in Conversations on the Healing Journey with 0 Comments

Last night I was going through my little house cleaning, throwing things out, rearranging and discovering. What started as a simple taking down the Christmas tree, turned into an all day late into the night cleaning session.

It’s interesting what you will find when you go through all the stuff you’ve accumulated. I found a bag filled with music sheets…music sheets that I had back when I was a little girl, including some songs my father and I worked on together. He was my vocal coach…ironic, isn’t it? He’s the main reason for losing my voice, the reason for the self censorship and unbreakable law to never talk about that which is never to be talked about.

Of course, his interest in my singing wasn’t for my own self expression, but the kick he got out of having a “precocious” daughter. There’s the original copy of the music sheet I learned the auria from Madame Butterfly, Un Bel Di Vedremo, at the tender age of 12, and Gerswhin’s Summer Time. My name is printed on the sheets, and there’s my writing, notes, instructions on how to sing what part. The music sheets are marked “Price, 75 cents”.

It’s been a while.

I smile this time though. It’s strange…there’s a tenderness, a kind of sadness when I look at these sheets, hold them in my hand…a kind of poignant loss. But I cherish them too. I don’t mind that tender raw place they open up inside me. This is a part of my past, and it’s not such a bad thing.

Why do people want to leave the past behind? We take it with us anyway, because it’s not really something we carry, but something that’s a part of us.

It’s a matter, I think, of coming to terms with…perhaps making peace with.

Anyway, these sheets are like little treasures. So it hurts a bit…maybe more than just a bit, but so what? I hold these sheets in my hands and I smile just the same.

Now, that’s the treasure.


About the Author

About the Author: Demian Yumei, author, singer/songwriter and artist activist, using spoken, written word and original songs in her human rights activism. Demian is a traveler on the healing journey with a lifelong love affair with the creative process. .


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