That’s an understatement. It’s downright hard for me to post here. It’s such a tender thing, this issue between my mother and I. Not only that, but I can’t think about her without thinking about my sister, who I miss very much.
But I don’t feel compelled to post on a regular basis…not here. That’s not what this blog or this space is about.
Still, I think I will be posting a little more often now. Yesterday I came to a realization that I really didn’t like my life. Oh, I love the people in it, and I am very grateful for many things. But how I’ve been living these days. So hectic, focusing too much time on trying to market or take care of the business end. I find I don’t have that much time, or any time, really, to create…or post here.
So, I’m reassessing my priorites, and going more with the heart and less with the frantic pursuits of everything I think I should be doing or am being told that I should be doing.
I need to reclaim my life, while I’m exploring it. That’s the whole point.
[…] Sometimes I feel like a turtle. I come to a realization, like the one in October, make a decision…and then draw my head back into my shell and stay in the same spot. Then some time goes by, in this case, almost five months, and I emerge from my shell again, only to discover that I haven’t gone anywhere. […]