Right under our noses…

Written by on October 16, 2007 in Conversations on the Healing Journey with 0 Comments

…or in my case, right between the door and seat.

The CD, the one I knew I brought for our performance, but just moments before going on, realized I didn’t have it…reappears, suddenly, and out of “nowhere”, almost two months later in the very place I searched the most.

I had looked “everywhere”. I looked all over the dressing room, the stage, out to my car, the front, back and storage space of my wagon – two, three times each. It was nowhere to be found. And I knew, I knew, I knew I brought it, but I began to doubt myself. Did I lose it? How could I have? Maybe I just thought I brought it. I must have forgot it. Well, there’s no arguing, it’s simply not here.

Still, we went on and did a decent performance, albeit a more laid back one.

And now, I find it. Getting out of my car, I look down and there it is…the errant CD wedged on the floor between my seat and the frame of the door. 😕

I think, “Great, this is good for nothing”, but it got me to thinking and that, I suppose, is something.

How many times have I sought in vain to find something that should have been there, but wasn’t…but it was?

I’ve sought after more elusive things than a CD, and sometimes in more dire situations than a performance, though that is pretty nerve wracking.

I’ve sought to hear the voice of God in the darkest of nights, only to be met with silence. And I’ve been so frustrated by the seeming nonresponse, that I thought that perhaps I was mistaken. Perhaps I was wrong. Perhaps, there was just no one there…or in here, and the voice I thought was God’s was just my own foolishness prattling off in my head.

But I keep going. Somehow, I make it through the night, and when I’m not looking or calling, there comes a time when I feel a tapping on my shoulder. I turn around, and just as sure as that CD in my hands, I know I am in God’s.

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About the Author: Demian Yumei, author, singer/songwriter and artist activist, using spoken, written word and original songs in her human rights activism. Demian is a traveler on the healing journey with a lifelong love affair with the creative process. .


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